Focus on perfection

I am trying to focus on positivity - despite my negative overindulgence - lately. I can see how some woman can develop eating disorders. I feel sick when I overeat. But I'm reluctant to make myself sick because I'm worried that may take me to a place where I don't want to go.

All I need to focus on is my perfect health:

• Weigh 130 lbs
• Run everyday and work out daily
  
• Drink tons of fresh water
• Eat wholesome, healthy food
• Banish sugar and artificial sweetners
  
• Get Zoom whitening on my teeth
• Breast augmentation
• Lasik eye surgery

Is it bad to be this vain? I'm trying to just focus on me and my perfection - my needs and wants for myself. I can't let anything get in the way of my achievement of my perfect weight. I want to get SERIOUS!!!!